I need some goat's tears!

I had the surgery on my wrist about a week and a half ago. The surgery itself went smoothly. But getting there, the muffler fell off Jared's car, which was a bit of a hassle. The doctor gave me percocets for the pain. I was really excited about it because I wouldn't be required to make decisions while taking them. However, they made me violently ill so I stopped taking them the next day.

I went back to work Monday. I couldn't do much with my right arm, but it turns out I used it far too much anyway because I was in agony that night. I used it far less the rest of the week and it wasn't too bad.

I woke up Friday to minimal pain. My sister drove me to my doctor's appointment that morning. The doctor cut off the splint and removed the stitches. Every tug sent shocks of pain through my arm. I next had to have a cast put on. They made me turn my wrist 90 degrees. I have never felt pain like that in my life. It reduced me to tears instantly, and the pain did not ease up until I woke up this morning. It was so bad I almost fainted when they were putting the cast on. I had to lie down in the casting room for a while. I had been planning on going to work after my appointment, but I ended up calling out. In case such things happen again, I'm making my appointments in the afternoon so I can at least work in the morning.

I treated my sister to lunch on Friday, then she brought me home. I promptly felt exhausted, got into bed, and didn't wake up until almost four hours later. I slept a lot yesterday too. I'm not used to sleeping so much. I'm always so confused when I wake up because I'm either not expecting to fall asleep or I'm not expecting to sleep as long as I do.

In this cast, I have way less mobility than I had with the splint. This makes me think that some of the things I was doing with my right hand last week I shouldn't have been doing, like the little bit of writing I did. I'm far too independent for my own good. I absolutely hate not being able to do things for myself. Before the surgery, I could do whatever I wanted, just everything would cause pain. For the most part, I would do them anyway. At least until Jared would catch on and yell at me about it. But now, I don't even have the strength to lift a book, never mind keep it open to read. I gave up opening canned goods months ago because it just caused too much pain, so having Jared do that isn't such a big deal. But now I can't even cut up my own food for dinner.

Bah. It's just really frustrating for me. I don't like having to rely on other people. Relying on other people has burned me in the past so it makes me very wary and anxious now. I was hoping to be able to drive relatively soon. I would have been able to drive my car in the splint, but definitely not in this cast. I mean, I'd be able to down shift, but going up would be cumbersome. My sister should be getting a newer car in a few weeks, so we can switch when that happens.

Jared and blazepoet  split the duties of bringing me to and from work last week, which I am grateful for. I should see if somebody else from work can drive me when Jared is working, so [info]blazepoet doesn't always have to do it. I feel bad I'm limiting his free time.

If this whole process doesn't lessen my everyday pain, I'm going to be really upset. Right now, it's so not worth it. Hopefully, it will prove to be so.

My next doctor's appointment is on October 2. I'm not quite sure yet how I'm going to make it to Peabody, but I will figure something out. When I made the appointment, I had a feeling something else was going on that day. And it just occurred to me! That's the day the Topsfield Fair opens! Alas, no fair for Candi this year.
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I have now been residing in my apartment for almost a full month! Yay! I love it. Living with Jared is way more convenient than not living with Jared. I only have to get gas in my car every 7 days!! Before cohabitation, I was having to refuel every 4 to 5 days.

The apartment is slowly being put together. I still have some stuff at my mom's house. I had Jared build my shelving unit yesterday, and it seems like Gandalf will fit nicely next to it. I think I'll bring him up later in the week. I was watching LOTR yesterday. I got through all of the Fellowship and halfway through the Two Towers, until Jared came home and was pretty much falling asleep on the couch. Jared missed the "They're taking the hobbits to Isengard!" line but, he did manage to come home right at "PO-TAY-TOES!"

I don't know if there is a movie that reminds me of college more than LOTR. It was just always a staple. When I lived with Nicole, only the first two were out and we watched them a lot. Nicole did love Legolas. When I lived with Gabby, we watched all 3 all the time. I'm one of those people that can't really watch anything while doing homework, but Gabby needed something on. For some reason, I could always derive equations and do diffy while watching LOTR. That, and Scooby Doo.

My surgery is fast approaching and I get more scared every day! It's probably lucky that I also have more pain every day, otherwise I would chicken out. But I suppose if I didn't have the pain, then I wouldn't need the surgery. I'm still hoping it will mysteriously disappear...

Anyway, the reasons I decided to post were three-fold:
1. Is there anything more brilliant than the comic A Softer World? The answer is: I think not.
2. Wouldn't it be AWESOME if Bill made land fall in New England? The answer is: YES!
3. I know Les Paul was really old. But I am still convinced he died because you can hear Justin Timberlake on 104.1 in Boston now.
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So, I will no longer be in the Surgery-Free club :(

I have two, maybe three, tears in the ligaments on my right wrist. Boo. The doctor said "now we need to decide how aggressive we want to treat this." I thought this meant there would be options of varying agressivness. Which, in truth there are. He gave me 1.) Live with the pain. and 2.) Have surgery to fix it.  I just thought there would be more choices! Apparently, he doesn't think physical therapy would help any because I already had two months of occupational therapy and the pain just got worse.

My surgery is scheduled for Sept 9. My arm will be immobilized for 8 weeks. And the stitches inside my wrist won't disolve for 6 months and I'll feel the knots the whole time. I just don't want to be in pain any more. It used to just hurt when I was doing the same thing for a rather long time (like reading or talking on the phone). But now it hurts to do every thing, no matter what it is and no matter how long I do it. I really don't like it and would like it stop.

The doctor said I'll still be able to type, so I'll be able to work. Just driving with an immobilized right arm when you drive a stick shift might be troublesome...


I will without a doubt be wearing my wrist splints on both hands when moving this weekend.
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busy week ahead

Monday is my birthday, YAY! I'm just excited to get Jared's homemade birthday cake. Last year, he make a chocolate cake with peanut butter frosting. This year, he told me he wanted to change the frosting, and I objected. It was really good last year! BUT! He wants to make it chocolate peanut butter frosting. So I told him that's okay. hehe

I had an MRI on Wednesday for my right arm. It was...uncomfortable. The tech was surprised that I actually remained still for the half hour. But that was what I was told to do. So I did. Apparently, other people have a harder time forcing themselves not to scratch their nose. Before the MIR, I had to sign a release form. On one of the pages, you had to list any surgeries you've had. This isn't the first time in the last few months where I've had to state any previous surgeries. I've never had any. And each time the people are like, "You've NEVER had any surgeries?!" Is it that rare for someone to live their first 25 years without any surgeries?? Each time, I tell them I did have my wisdom teeth out, but they say that it doesn't really count. Maybe I'm just an abnormally clumsy person, who manages not to do any real damage?

Anyways, I could end up having surgery on my wrist depending on what the MRI shows. Then I'll never have to go through the same "You've NEVER had any surgeries?!" discussion. Although, I hope it's an *easy* fix. Probably not likely... I go back to the doctor on Tuesday, so I guess I just have to wait a little more to find out.

Wednesday, Jared and I sign the lease for the apartment. Woo! Jared's moving in most of his stuff Wednesday, but I have to wait til the weekend. Our bed (the mattress and free frame really, we have to wait a few weeks for the actual bed) arrives Saturday, so Saturday night will be the first night there. Sunday we should be moving big stuff from my house, like the sofa and bureau. My sister has a rather large SUV, so I'm hoping every thing will fit fine. I just feel really useless. I can't carry a lot of weight in my arms or anything at an awkward angle. I mean, I can do it. I'll just be in a lot more pain for about a month til it decreases back to its usual pain. But both Jared and my mom have told me no. So, I may have to enlist other people's arms. I guess the rest of their bodies can come too.

My left elbow has been painful again. I think its re-inflamed. Boo. That trumps any pain my right wrist throws at me because it affects my entire arm. It's really...not pleasant. I wish I could have one of those ultrasound machines from the therapy place. That always made it feel much better. However, I don't think they let random people buy one. And if they do, it is probably super expensive. I'll add it to the "if I'm ever a billionaire" wish list.

There really is a lot to do, with packing and all. But at the moment, I just want to relax!
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Jared and I got the apartment! Yay!


Jared drove by Chicken N Chips today, and he said there is a sign saying they will open soon under new ownership.

Today is a day for "w00t!"
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num nums

It has been almost 2 years, but one of my favorite sodas is back!

That's right, Pepsi has brought back Mountain Dew Game Fuel. Jared bought me one today, and it is quite possibly one of the best things he has ever given me. It has a W.O.W. label now, but it smells and tastes the same as the Halo 3 days! They have a blue colored one too. Jared got that one for himself and I tried it, but it wasn't nearly as good as the regular reddish one.

I can get past the ugly orc on the label because it is so freakin' delicious.

I don't drink much soda anymore, but back when it was out, I had to start watching how much I drank because I kept wanting the deliciousness. It looks like I'll have to do the same once again, if we can find 12 packs at Shaws. They didn't have any at Market Basket.

The resurgence of this long-lost product has given me hope that Kit Kat Bites may someday come back too.

A girl can dream.

In other news, Jared and I put in an application for an apartment where tuberatn  lives. We should hear back on Tuesday or Wednesday. While I'm not excited about living in Nashua, I am excited to finally be living with Jared. I hate it when he leaves. I have a tendency to mope. But! With any luck, those issues will be resolved soon :)

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    I have Teardrops on my Guitar by Taylor Swift stuck in my head bah


I remembered something else I wanted to post about! I've seen a lot of great bumper stickers lately. The one I saw a few weeks ago was "Christianity has Pagan DNA." And the one I saw this afternoon was "It's a car NOT a phone booth!" haha!
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Today is a great day.

Yeah I had to work, but I left early for an occupational therapy appointment. The appointment ended around 4, so what does one do with extra free time on a nice spring day?


woot woot
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of therapy and movies

I've been to occupational therapy a few times now, and I guess its helping. I haven't cried from the pain, but it's still there. For instance, the pain is uncomfortable right now in my arm and my left wrist, but I can deal. The therapist had requested 8-12 visits from my doctor, but they approved me for 24. I guess they think I'm that bad! haha

I learned a few things from the therapy about myself though:

1. As Margie, my therapist said, I'm severely right handed.
2. My grip strength is still in the 50-75 percentile range. Imagine how strong I would be if I didn't have bad wrists and elbows!
3. I have really bad posture, which I'm slowly correcting. But I'm sorry, I can't sit straight for 8 hours at work.
4. I have a high tolerance for electric currents coursing through my arm.
5. I always knew I was oddly flexible, but it's weird having a medical professional confirm it.

Work has been okay, better now that I'm not crying every few hours. We've had overtime the last couple weeks, but I haven't been able to work as much as I used to, due to the therapy appointments and Jared's work schedule. It's okay though. Working extra always makes me incredibly tired anyway. There was one day last weekend where I slept til 8:30 am! That's unheard of for me in my post college days. I mean, even today I woke up at 6:20 am.

Summer movie season is upon us again. I make Jared a handy reference list of the movies he wants to see for the entire summer. Going through all the movies released each weekend made me see there is about A ZILLION chick flicks this summer. I probably won't get to see any of them though *sigh* We saw the Wolverine movie last weekend. And I pre-ordered our Star Trek IMAX tickets last week. We shall be seeing it tomorrow with blazepoet  and yakavenger . Jared claims I'll like it, but I was never a big Star Trek fan. I've only seen one episode, and I was about 8 at the time. *shrugs*  I'll probably like it more than the Terminator movie in a few weeks time. The only movies I'm looking forward to so far this summer is Up, Transformers, and, of course, Harry Potter. Seeing the other movies though makes Jared happy. And I like a happy Jared! I also like sad Jared, but trust me, happy Jared is always better.

We're going to Foxwoods again for Jared's birthday this year. I have a few days off from work, so, while we won't have much to gamble with, it will still be nice to get away for a few days.

P.S: What if this happened to Bruce Wayne??
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of tears and yogi

I've been in so much pain lately.

I've had tendinitis in my right wrist for many years. I've gone to the doctor for it a few times. I went last year when the wrist pain was unbearable. The doctor had me change the height of my chair at work and it helped. I could deal with the pain.

In the past few weeks, the pain has increased so much. Since I fell down the stairs, my left wrist has been in pain more. And the pain in my right arm was no longer contained in my wrist/hand. It's going all the way up my arm and down my side. I cry at work when this happens. So, I went back to the doctor last week. He said that not only do I have tendonitis in my right wrist, but both my elbows are inflamed. He gave me these stretches to do and I have to go to therapy.

I've been doing the stretches now for over a week. They are helping my wrist pain! It's making the pain in my wrist/hand back to managble levels. However, they are causing pain throughout my arm. In fact, when I've been at work, my left arm has hurt worse than my right, and my right is the one that is usually in the most pain. I think I preferred the pain just being contained to my wrist. I can deal with that and not cry all the time. But when it's both my arms and I can't find a position where there isn't pain, it makes the 8 hours at work unbelievably difficult.

I just don't want to be in pain anymore. It's not just using a computer that causes me pain. Even reading a book hurts. I've decreased my home computer usage greatly, but even the hour or so I do use it causes me pain. I'm in pain right now. I'm wearing a wrist brace on my right wrist (I always do when using the computer), but my left is kinda twingy (I use a left brace at work when the twinging becomes constant), but my right elbow is killing me. I just don't understand.

I have tendinitis so long, I don't even remember what it's like to use a computer and not have pain. Bah.

In other, non-complaining news...

There's been a bear in town (on the other side of town where I used to live) that's been wreaking havoc on people's bee hives. It's even been on the news!

Uhh that's about it. Not much goes on in my life, you see. I did get a random computer lap desk in the mail from Barnes & Noble. I didn't order it, nor was I charged for it. So! If you had it sent to me, thanks!
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